October 31th has been always an exciting date to me... not always a good one, but it haven't been boring almost anytime. Since I was a kid, when I used to went out for trick or treat (what no ones does here anymore for several reasons), from just crazy parties that sometimes didn't end well, and some other times became actual terror nights. But this year, I can say for sure it has been the best All hallows eve for me... ever.

This year was different cause in spite of all the little stupid existencial crisis I've had, and all the shit I mentioned in my last entry, it was the first time in a lot of time when I could actually be with friends (good friends) to have a good time, and do real Halloween stuff, in years.

As the ones that read *Sefardim's journals and comments at pictures, may know, she's part of the Staff of AnS fansub, also, she and ~x-Purple-doll-x have a podcast style show at AnS Radio, called Freak Fangirls Mania. Well, this year I got invited to be with them in Halloween's special transmision. That, for me, was just perfect, cause I have got really, really close to both of these girls, and sharing with them the time On Air is fucking amusing.

Curiously, yesterday, the whole day had a really strange "atmospehre" ... I woke up feeling weird and was like "hyper" during the afternoon. I almost got hit by a car (so I almost fulfilled some curse of a death friend that I won't mention here cause it is past and I buried it already... so as my friend), and after hours doing a long final-work with classmates (and joking around meanwhile too), I almost didn't got in time for the show.

Somehow, i could make it in time, and got home with less than 30 minutes to recover breathe and prepare my story for the show.
when we began I tried to act naturally, but somehow I was fucking nervous, so the story was shorter than I expected,f ortunately the public, and my sweet hosts seemed to like it.
All the show was a complete Umineko No Naku Koro Ni parody, and I was supposed to be Ronove.
After the show, most of the people that was talking at the chatbox, so as the hosts and the other guests like me seemed to be glad with the show.

So the question that the ones who have read this far ask now is... why the hell should I care about all of this? Actually... there's no reason. My point is that even before last night, and still today I realize that all the doubts and stress that was not cause by college but about my jealousy and selfishness about some stuff is finally gone.
I've finally put my mind in order and found what does each one of the two girls I mentioned las time do really matter for me. And I'm fucking glad about that, I'm happy that there are no more dubs in my mind about them.

So everything seems to go fine... althoug it ain't in absolutely any way, there are still some stressing deadlines with studies but even that don't seem to look so troublesome now. Even the new stalker I got (really, why the hell am I a magnet for rancorous loosers?) doesn't seem to bother me as before.

Vacations are at hand, and there seem to be some good opportunities to get some money, even if I gotta get a real job for that (as if I need more work that the one I have at consultories, doing all the -forced and for free- social work that college requires for graduation).

As for now, I am about to go back to some works, but first, there are a couple of people who I must talk to... one of them is just one of the mos t amazng girls you could ever imagine.

Take it easy people... relax that the year is almost ending so party and Holydays will be very very soon.

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